I'm at it only rarely

I've been neglecting this part of my life for long enough, and my children and children in law's are setting a very good example for me in how to document a life. Why this is almost as good as a "journal". I do however think things things that I don't want everyone to know about. This is sort of the subject of this blog. I've been thinking more lately about what is the real core of a person. Is it their dreams and aspirations? Is it what a person does or what they wish they could or would do? Maybe its because I'm getting older and can now see the end of my life approaching, I'm very curious about who and what I really am. I know that I'm a child of my Father in Heaven and that I have eternal potential. I have a fairly good understanding of the plan of salvation and have studied a lot about the Atonement and life after death. Something interesting passed through my mine the other day without sticking then it came back so I've given it more thought. I think God's mercy will make up for a lot of things that that we do in this life and don't think to repent of, and for lives (maybe ours) that due to circumstances beyond the individual's control, have no real chance to experience the best in life that most of us enjoy daily. And I further think that some of these people have been foreordained to be some of our "opposition in all things". I think that a loving Father in Heaven wouldn't exclude those that are like that from his greatest blessing. This being where mercy comes in, if these people will at some time recognize their Father for What He is, (they being a necessary part of our lives). I guess I believe somewhat that we will all (even those difficult people) be judged on (1) what we do with what we have been given by our Father in Heaven and (2) what we do to rise above what we were trained to be in our youth (some people have a much different life than most of us could even understand though we see evidence of these things daily in the news). You may say "I already know that" my point here is that some people that we chose not to like, because of their actions and lives, may gain as much or more from their starting point (yet never reaching an understanding of eternal life and developing a relationship with our Father in Heaven as we believe to be necessary for salvation). In more simple terms all of these people that we look at and wish we never had to see or be around are necessary for our growth and when we can love them and react well to all they do or say or represent and then reach out to them in love, friendship and compassion to help in any in any way we can that's what life is all about.